Happy New Year!

Well today is the last day of this horrible year. I really hope next year is much better than this one has been. My New Year's resolution is to be less jaded and hateful. I am going into this year with an open mind and open heart and a whole new outlook on life. I will find love this year. I will be a better mother to my baby. I will be a better friend. I will stop worrying about the small things and focus on what's important.
I'm good enough. I'm smart enough, and gosh darn it people like me.-Stuart Smalley

Tis The Season

So by now everyone has read about the party on Saturday night. (Thanks for the kisses IG). Well my experience was the same as theirs with the exception of Minnesota's tongue in my mouth all night. Merry Christmas to me! Oh and thanks to everyone that ate my pie and loved it. hehe!

Let's Talk

WARNING TO ALL FAMILY MEMBERS! DO NOT READ THIS! SEVERE TRAUMA WILL FOLLOW!
So let's talk about sex. Let's talk about the fact that I'm not getting it, it's all I think about and when I was married I didn't want any part of it. Why is that? Why is it when you can get it any time you want it you don't care, but the minute it's gone that's all you think about. Maybe it's just me. And I'm not talking about this so every pervert that reads this can offer to satisfy my needs. If I wanted that I could just go to a bar and grab the first hot guy I see and have meaningless sex all night. I am past all that . I just want to find someone that wants to have a conversation every now and then. Someone that wants to be my friend as well as my sex slave. Not someone that offers to come over late at night and leave before the sun comes up. Why is it so hard to find nice guys? They all talk like they are the shit until it comes time to prove it. I have met more good-for-nothing crap weasels in the last year! Let me sum up my findings:
1)A so-called friend that talked me into leaving my husband and then dumped me for someone else months later.
2)A 30 something year old virgin that worshipped Ronald Reagan and thought a good time consisted of hanging out with a bunch of uptight lawyers on New Years Eve. Stopped talking after my shocked response to his admitting the virgin thing.
3)A wanna-be country musician that didn't want to commit to anything but his music.
4)A brother of a friend that apparently just wanted to have sex. Went out for a couple of months and with no warning we were done.
5)The Ben guy...well...you know that story.
So you see my problem. I keep finding these guys that I don't need to be with. I'm tired of playing these sick ass games. Especially since they are the ones making all the rules.

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Friday night I had a very strange conversation with an old boyfriend. We'll call him....oh hell his name is Nathan. Anyway, Nathan and I dated for a few months last year after I split from my husband. We have been friends for 7 years and in that time we had several conversations about "what if". We tried many times to be together but he always made more promises than he could keep. The last time we went out he gave me the, "I love you and want to marry you" speech. Well, no more than 2 weeks after that he had dumped me and moved on to the girl he is with now. He is engaged to this girl and until Friday I thought everything in his strange little world was going great. So, here's how it played out. He asked me about a guy I went out with after we broke up and went on to tell me that he wasn't right for me. Then he told me that he didn't belong with the current girlfriend. He also told me that he still loves me and misses me very much. WHAT!? After the hell I went through after he dumped me, he has the balls to tell me that. I can't count how many times he has screwed me over and came back to say, "I made a mistake." My first reaction was to play him like he played me and screw him over just as bad. I was going to play his game and make sure him and his girlfriend were broken up, then tell him how much of an idiot he is and dump him. Then I remembered that I am an adult. So, I'm done. To all that read this blog and know this snake, be aware. He is a charming liar that will do whatever is necessary to get what he wants, then throw it away without a care when he's done.
1) Told my friend after we broke up that he never loved me. He knew I loved him and he needed that at the time.
2) Told same friend he didn't like my son and was quoted saying he was a "Brat".
3) Told me to get a divorce because he wanted to marry me. 2 weeks after the papers were signed he dumped me for someone else.
4) A month after he dumped me he sent his new girlfriend to my office to pick out glasses.
The list goes on and on.