Grin and Bear It

Sometimes you just have to ask yourself if a situation is worth dealing with. You can be in one situation that seems so bad, so you get out of it only to find your self in another situation just as bad, if not worse. But, by then you think,"I never try to work things out. I always run from my problems. I should try to fix this." I had a good friend tell me once we never know how much to take. Either we don't seem to try or we put up with too much. This is so true. I have been with some people that could say one wrong thing or forget to call only once and I dumped them cold. But then I have someone that flies off the handle over every little thing that happens and I think I can fix it. I can't say I fight more now than any other time, but now I'm tired. Which is worse, to confront an argument and scream and fight and call each other names or just walk away until things cool down? My method is to find somewhere else to be other than in the line of fire. To turn my back and walk away. This to some is a slap in the face or a sign of an uncaring bitch. I thought getting in someone's face and screaming and pointing fingers of guilt would be much worse. Apparently not. I think maybe it comes from some childhood trauma. When someone believes you have to fight to show that you care, there is obviously a problem. What happens and at what point does it make a permanent mark on someone? How much trauma does a person have to go through before they snap and the rest of there life is miserable? I wonder if things had been different, if the dad had been around more, had drank less, if the mom had stuck around, if there was a girlfriend in the picture, would things be different. Or is a person what they are no matter how they were raised. I had just as much of a shitty childhood as the next person, but I try to overcome certain things and not let it run my life now. I have made some pretty shitty decisions that I might not have made if things in my life had been different, but I think I am a pretty decent person. I wouldn't say I am as fucked up as I could've been. I guess some people just handle things differently than others. Take Alyce for instance. Here is someone that had a crappy life and instead of trying to better herself, she went with the other way. Instead of trying to have a better family life with her own kids, she's trying to kill what family she could have. What a fucked up world we live in.